I have been writing in a journal on an almost-daily basis since I was 17 years old. This is a record of me going through each entry from the beginning, and commenting on the me from fifteen years ago.

I’m beginning to be stupid again. I know it, too. It’s up to me to say either yes or no. Oh sure, I could put it off for another month, but it will always come back to me. It’s up to me to say yes or no. I’ve got to be comfortable with myself – which I’m not right now. I’ve got to be comfortable in my environment – which I’m not. I’m tired if I’m tired. I’ll live it through, but it’s always up to me.

I’m still just trying to build up the courage to make a move on this girl. C’mon, get on with it already!