I have been writing in a journal on an almost-daily basis since I was 17 years old. This is a record of me going through each entry from the beginning, and commenting on the me from fifteen years ago.

There’s this secret little desire I hold for someone that I’d like to let know, but she’s so shy that it might scare her so. What do I do? I keep it inside and use it ever so sparingly for lonely little solo trists that no one needs know about.

I had a little crush on a very shy, mousy, soft spoken girl that lived in my dorm. Mostly, I just wanted to know what she would sound like while having sex. To tell the truth, I still get attracted to this type of woman for that exact same reason.